.Pour Into Me.

Pour into me
All your nothingness and nightmares
and I'll turn them into everythings and dreams
If you pour them into me
I can turn your every thunderstorm to sunshine
Turn your winter months to springtime
Love you'll see
I ask you to give to me
All the things that make you toss and turn at night
Hold to things that make you happy
I'll make everything else right
If you let me
I can help you become what you're meant to be
If you take the things that trouble you
And pour them into me


Written: 11.20.08

.Grown.

Wrote the poem in a nightmare. Weird, right?

My mama went away
My mama went away
Seems like just the other day
My mama went away
And now I'm all alone
So now they think I'm grown
But being grown ain't what it seems
I don't have time for dreams
See, now I'm trying to hustle
Now I'm trying to grind
Keep food on the table
A roof o'er this head of mine
Don't have time to cry
Don't have time to pray
Barely have the strength to make it through my day to day
Cus see, My mama went away
My mama went away
Seems like just the other day
My mama went away
And now I'm all alone
So now they think I'm grown
Because I'm out here on my own
So now I guess I'm grown.

I don't remember the date.

pt 4 (the end)

my favorite out of the series

I left three weeks ago
And realized I'd forgotten how to sleep alone
I need the company, thats why I've always got the TV on
And my worst enemy has suddenly become the radio
'Cause all they play is love songs
And we all know how that goes.
Its weird now that I'm killing spiders by myself
And going to change the light bulbs with a foot stool as my help
And the first night? I accidentally cooked for two
Yea, I'm just that used to you
But you know what?
As much as my heart aches
This don't feel like heartbreak
Just another slice of life I finally get to partake of
And even though you weren't my first love
I can honestly say that you were my best and worst love
You taught me how to thirst, love
Didn't know passion till I knew you
Didn't know my own strength, but now I do
And I know I can make it through
Because no matter what tomorrow brings
I'm almost sure I've been through worse things
You see
I left three weeks ago
And now I find that I can finally sleep alone
Don't need the company, so I don't have to have the TV on
And nothing in this world could break up me and the radio
I'm back in love with love songs
And we all know how that goes
I change my lightbulbs, kill my spiders by myself
I'm stronger now, so I'm thanking you for all your help
But every now and then, I still do cook for two
I'm too used to being used to you.

Written: 10.27.08

pt 3

Super sorry, got thrown off. Three today. Pt 3, pt 4, && then another that doesn't have anything to do with anything. I also found a super old notebook full of stuff, so I might post some of that. This is my least favorite, by the way.

"It seems like no matter how I try
We keep getting closer to goodbye
And whatever words I choose to say
Keep pushing you further and further away
This isn't the way its s'possed to be
You're supposed to spend forever here with me
I don't mean to make you cry
Listening to my lullabye..."

Yea? Well you always do
And the heartbroken always sing along with you
So I tell myself that I'm just being strong for you
Because thats what good women are supposed to do
Be strong for to
'Cause times are bound to get rough
And at some point, somebody is bound to give up
But thats when I step in and say enough is enough
It just wouldn't be love if it never got tough
And even though I'm totally devoted
Every word I say, somehow makes you feel demoted
Like I wouldn't give the stars to have your heart
Give up jewelry and cars to be where you are
The main part of your life
Cus doesn't it feel right when we're together
Despite whatever weather
The temperature brings
It is as it'll always be
Between you and me.

Written: 10//16//08