Compassion is gone
And sympathy with it.
I open my heart
Just to find nothings in it.
You think its all rainbows
But take it from me,
You'd prefer your nightmares
To my reality
You whine and complain
But when do you try?
Only watching the rain
So the sun passes by
Powerful like a train
Leaving tracks in the sky
You'd realize you had rainbows
If you opened your eyes
The storm will engulf us
And cover us all.
The tide sweeps us up-
How we rise, how we fall.
But look the the rain clouds
Yes, look to the sky
And find in life, rainbows
As each storm goes by.
Written: 10.14.08
I wrote pt 3 today but I'll post it tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
pt 2
There are times I've been afraid to let the real me show,
But you've given me the strength I need to grow.
Everything about the time we spent together
Made me better,
So I'm sad to say its time for me to go.
I don't want any hard feelings-
We've had fun together really,
But I'm looking for a little more than fun.
So its best we don't delay it,
And I truly hate to say it
But my love, this time, I really have to run.
Now you're telling me you'll change
Saying you can make it better
But I know its still the same
Every time we get together
We go right back to the game
We love selfishly, we're childish
Always trying to place the blame
Always trying to place the blame
And I never tell the truth
Till I want to hurt your feelings
Then I let emotions loose
That'll send your mindset reeling
What is it we find appealing
About this sick game we play
Always pulling us together
When we try to walk away?
Well, what else is there to say?
Now i've told you that I'm leavin
But you're begging me to stay
Even though I have no reason
Its the highest price I'll pay
Staying with you is like treason
Its my own heart I betray
Its my own heart I betray
But without you I feel lost
And I fall into your web again
I pay the highest cost
Without thought, cause it feels heaven sent
I give up in exhaust
In my slumber, hear you say
"You weren't leaving anyway"
"You weren't leaving anyway"
Written: 10.13.08
But you've given me the strength I need to grow.
Everything about the time we spent together
Made me better,
So I'm sad to say its time for me to go.
I don't want any hard feelings-
We've had fun together really,
But I'm looking for a little more than fun.
So its best we don't delay it,
And I truly hate to say it
But my love, this time, I really have to run.
Now you're telling me you'll change
Saying you can make it better
But I know its still the same
Every time we get together
We go right back to the game
We love selfishly, we're childish
Always trying to place the blame
Always trying to place the blame
And I never tell the truth
Till I want to hurt your feelings
Then I let emotions loose
That'll send your mindset reeling
What is it we find appealing
About this sick game we play
Always pulling us together
When we try to walk away?
Well, what else is there to say?
Now i've told you that I'm leavin
But you're begging me to stay
Even though I have no reason
Its the highest price I'll pay
Staying with you is like treason
Its my own heart I betray
Its my own heart I betray
But without you I feel lost
And I fall into your web again
I pay the highest cost
Without thought, cause it feels heaven sent
I give up in exhaust
In my slumber, hear you say
"You weren't leaving anyway"
"You weren't leaving anyway"
Written: 10.13.08
Sunday, October 12, 2008
pt 1
I called it part one, cus I've got a feeling there's going to be a part two, && three, & so on...
Hickies left from another woman's mouth are on his neck
And I wonder, how much loyalty can one expect
From a boy who runs around all day
Pretending he's a man?
Diving in and out of pussy, trying to get all that he can.
Living in his mama's house, trying to call himself grown
When there's nothing in his life he's accomplished on his own
So there'd be nothing to gain, if I did decide to claim him
He'd just be one more dependent, take my money, then go spend it
These thoughts pass faster than seconds,
He's still touching and caressing,
but I'm staring at the hickies on his neck.
And it hits me like a train would
Clearer than the light of day would
That he's never going to give me his respect.
Though his hands have known my thighs
I know nothing of his mind
And the heart that beats so fast for me now
Really isn't mine.
As our limbs become untangled
I find I'm no longer strangled
By the thought of leaving what we were behind
Written: 10.11.08
Hickies left from another woman's mouth are on his neck
And I wonder, how much loyalty can one expect
From a boy who runs around all day
Pretending he's a man?
Diving in and out of pussy, trying to get all that he can.
Living in his mama's house, trying to call himself grown
When there's nothing in his life he's accomplished on his own
So there'd be nothing to gain, if I did decide to claim him
He'd just be one more dependent, take my money, then go spend it
These thoughts pass faster than seconds,
He's still touching and caressing,
but I'm staring at the hickies on his neck.
And it hits me like a train would
Clearer than the light of day would
That he's never going to give me his respect.
Though his hands have known my thighs
I know nothing of his mind
And the heart that beats so fast for me now
Really isn't mine.
As our limbs become untangled
I find I'm no longer strangled
By the thought of leaving what we were behind
Written: 10.11.08
Friday, October 10, 2008
Awkward, Wounded, Selfish, Hurt.
Been a long time, right? I know. I'll try harder.
I'm not expecting greatness
Just expecting patience
Funny how we hate this
And still can't escape this
You tell me you'll wait
But then you get impatient
'If you loved me, then you'd do this'
Isn't motivation
"She was just a girlfriend"
"He was just a boyfriend"
Just like all the others
Left you disappointed
"Not trying to compare but,
When she touched me there, it used to-
Oh, now I've upset you.
Love, I never meant to"
Awkward and wounded and selfish and hurt
We say what sounds "right" when the truth doesn't work
Put love up on pedestals, place it so high
We can't even reach it, despite how we try
We cling to each other, claim that we need
Then run to the next with the fastest of speeds
Looking for something, that we'll never find
Probably cus we've had it, and left it behind.
Awkward and wounded and selfish and hurt
Fumbling at love and praying that it works
Awkward and wounded and selfish and hurt
Fumbling
Tumbling
Crumbling
Written: 10/10/08
I'm not expecting greatness
Just expecting patience
Funny how we hate this
And still can't escape this
You tell me you'll wait
But then you get impatient
'If you loved me, then you'd do this'
Isn't motivation
"She was just a girlfriend"
"He was just a boyfriend"
Just like all the others
Left you disappointed
"Not trying to compare but,
When she touched me there, it used to-
Oh, now I've upset you.
Love, I never meant to"
Awkward and wounded and selfish and hurt
We say what sounds "right" when the truth doesn't work
Put love up on pedestals, place it so high
We can't even reach it, despite how we try
We cling to each other, claim that we need
Then run to the next with the fastest of speeds
Looking for something, that we'll never find
Probably cus we've had it, and left it behind.
Awkward and wounded and selfish and hurt
Fumbling at love and praying that it works
Awkward and wounded and selfish and hurt
Fumbling
Tumbling
Crumbling
Written: 10/10/08
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